It’s simply…

Noise.

As you know, I work in the software development arena, and I’m constantly writing code, tap tap tapping on my keyboard, being bombarded by phone calls, emails, personal visits from confused coworkers…

This site outputs white noise through your browser. I came in this morning with a nasty headache. I popped this on, moved the slider to 50%, and a wave of calm just washed over me. I cannot express how marvelous this is. Just white noise. Nothing fancy. Just noise that cancels out the chaotic noise of the office a smooth and steady noise that can help focus.

You owe it to yourself to give it a shot.

Expert!

A perfect, expert performance in Rock Band

I don’t really have anything else to say about this. That’s 5 gold stars, a perfect performance, on expert difficulty level, in Rock Band on the Xbox 360.

Now you know why I haven’t posted in a while. Er, sorry.

Dear George

Hi George,

You don’t know me, we’ve never met–you’ve never even heard of me. In fact, since I’m writing this letter to you after you died yesterday, I can wager a good deal of cash that you’ll never hear of me, and we’ll never meet. I heard about your death this morning, going through my daily RSS feeds, not from any reputable news source, but from an online cartoon news post. Kinda ruined my day, jackass. Not that you care, of course.

I grew up listening to your humor, man. My whole life until today has been a life with George Carlin in the mix. Watching and re-watching your specials over the years has given me more than a lifetime of laughter, but has helped me to handle all the absolutely chronically stupid crap that happens in my daily life. It’s that sense of humor that you helped create that keeps me sane today, for as much as that counts for anything.

You’ll be missed. Jackoff.

It’s a good thing you were fucking old by the time you kicked the bucket.  Lenny went down at 40. Showoff.

Smears on the Road

There was a particularly potent parade of nitwits, idiots, and assholes on the road today on my way to work. I nearly chewed my own arm off in frustration. Would have, too, if it weren’t for all the leather I wear–that stuff is exceedingly difficult to chew through. There were a few times when I was mere fractions of an inch from becoming a Steve-shaped smear on the road.

By the way, for those of you who do not ride motorcycles, roadkill absolutely stinks.

I digress.

Has it already been a week since last I wrote something here? Sad, that. Can’t say I blame me, though. To put my 3.62 readers through the mindnumbingly dull events that have transpired these past 168 (give or take) hours would be a crime surely punishable by a free ticket to Guantanamo Bay to visit with Sergeant Pees-on-you.

But besides the banality of my week, I still managed to, yesterday, send another $25 to Barack Obama’s campaign after his announcement of not accepting any public funds for his election campaign. Now, I know there’s a really slim chance that this black outsider whose father was from a (omg!) different country can actually beat the Republican smear campaign spearheaded by Karl Rove and his wild band of misfits who are intent on another Bush term, but that kernel of optimism in me hasn’t yet been extinguished. I mean, America can’t be that stupid… right?

Ding Dong, Time to Wake Up

So it seems that Tim Russert died today. Can’t say I’m too upset about that–I don’t know much about him, never watched any of his shows, and I am typically uninterested when news figures die (similarly, I didn’t wring my hands overmuch when Peter Jennings died).

That said, Wikipedia very briefly gave me another example of why there are dicks in every corner of the world, online and off.

See the captured screenshot here–I made no modification except to highlight “Ding dong the witch is dead!” and draw a big arrow on it.

Okay, so apparently he was on NBC and MSNBC, was quite likely a liberal thinker, and probably pissed some people off with his personal beliefs. That’s no reason to celebrate his demise. I recall celebrating Jerry Falwell’s death some time back and I was not right then just as whoever vandalized Tim Russert’s Wikipedia page is not right.

The offensive line has been removed, but the larger issue still remains: Are we such a polarized nation that even people who decried Bush’s “You’re either with us or with the terrorists” motif are just as eager to claim the other side evil? Falwell was a bad man who hurt many people, emotionally and psychologically, in his claims of moral righteousness. Tim Russert was a journalist. I recognize that no journalism occurs in this nation anymore that isn’t slanted one way or the other–We the People are simply uninterested in discourse that is not supporting our ideas. Your daily news is merely another echelon of the mighty Infotainment Empire which has insinuated itself into our dinner table conversations as much as it has helped define for ourselves who we truly are. We’re red states and blue states, liberals and conservatives, McCain supporters or Obamaniacs.

I suppose it’s nothing really new. I recall deep divisions between us all as Americans back in 1992 when Bill Clinton first ran for President. It just seems like those things that make us unique (and, as such, have made this a phenomenally successful nation) have become so unnecessarily important without cause that it has driven each and every one of us to stress over things that needn’t be so bothersome.

Take, for example, my glee if Obama is to win the Presidency in November. I will marvel to the sky about my luck in living in this fascinating, world-shattering time. I will shed tears for my future, which will feel immeasurably brighter. Those things might not happen if McCain is elected, but neither am I going to curse the sky about my awful luck and start glaring at anyone who gives me a second glance. I will not cut down my own personal hopes and aspirations just because a white rich guy is in that neat office rather than a rich black guy. Reality will come crashing down on me to remind me that, at the end of the day, my day is mostly unaffected by the President, whoever s/he is. I will continue going to work. I will continue enjoying my weekends. I will continue to cry at sad movies, laugh with my friends, and drink too much.

I will not go to John McCain’s Wikipedia entery and fill it up with “Fascist” repeated over and over and over, despite what I may think. On November 8th, I will deal with whatever happens.

Mostly because I’m not a dick.

A Day

The sky outsideToday I quite nearly died on my way into work. As I was heading down a hill towards a somewhat busy intersection, a woman on the opposite side decided to try to turn left before I got there. In her haste to get across (perhaps egged on by the person she was talking to on the phone at the time), she neglected to notice that I was definitely going to slam right into the side of her car. But in typical mollasses-brained numbskullery, she recognized that she was about to kill me, so she stopped. In the middle of the intersection. I just barely eked by between her bumper and the car immediately behind her, also apparently unaware of my presence, also on his way to turning left, also on the phone.

Then we get this kind of sky outside the office. The dramatic contrast between the clear blue sky and the blackened cloud-covered sky fills me with awe. Almost looks like the sky was painted on. Or, more likely, that the foreground was added as an afterthought after weeks and months and years pouring over the elegance of the sky.

Anyway, I’m still alive. I’ll do my best to make it home, too.

I Need a Hero!

I’ll be brief. If you haven’t already, get your mitts on Heroes. There are two seasons available, and they’re showing the third on the tee-vee. Just do it. Possibly the best, definitely in the top 5 TV shows. Ever.

Without giving away too much, after one episode I literally had to sit back and take an half hour break to compose myself again. I was very emotionally invested in these characters, and what happens–I don’t want to ruin anything for anyone checking it out for the first time. There’s one guy who is obviously the bad guy. There is one guy who is obviously a good guy. And everyone else is a shade of one or the other, leaping over the line of demarcation over and over, warping the story into an impossible labyrinth of intricate strings. Each comment opens a new & exciting twist for someone.

I cannot praise this show enough. So I’ll just stop.

-394.64

That’s how much the Dow Jones Industrial Average dropped today. Just over 3%. Me, I don’t really care. I have no stocks anymore, so I have nothing, really, to lose directly from dives like that.

But I went to CNN when I got their ‘Breaking News’ email regarding this. And I really wanted to see a picture of people rioting in the streets, trucks on fire, thousands of tons of shredded paper flying out of the windows of high rise buildings. I wanted chaos and confusion and people in suits with tears running down bloodied faces, arms thrown to the sky, cursing at God and all His many creatures. Instead of that, I got a picture of some guy in a blue suit carrying a clipboard looking pensive. Sometimes it just doesn’t pay to be totally batshit nuts.

In related news, I want it to be known by all: I think John McCain is a two-faced liar, and if I ever met him, I’d seriously give him a nasty titty-twister. That’s right, I’d grab McCain’s nipples, one in each hand, between forefinger and thumb, and twist–perhaps 90 degrees. Then I’d let go and look him straight in the eye and say, “Okay, now, calm down!

Fridays are always a little weird for me because, inevitably, I forget to eat lunch. It makes me kinda weird for the rest of the day.

Happy weekend to both of my readers.

Connected

So I finally got a new phone. I’ve been using the very solid, very useful, very plain Samsung T509 for a very long time, and I have absolutely nothing but praise for it. It is compact, lightweight, solid, and incredibly durable (I twice dropped it in water and, once dried, it continued to work beautifully). Recently, however, its usefulness began to fade as the battery (brand new, mind you) would drain within a few hours of being fully charged and I would randomly have operating system crashes in the form of a white screen. It became an annoyance. So I hopped over to T-Mobile and looked for a good upgrade that wouldn’t cost me an arm and a leg.

I ended up going with the T-Mobile Shadow, which is an exceptional leap forward in terms of usability, applications and, dare I say it, connectivity. It’s lightweight, compact, and has a very satisfying slider that I just love using. It’s got space for an SD card, stereo bluetooth compatibility, runs Windows Mobile operating system, and is, just generally, much more phone than I am used to.

Was a time when I considered the end-all, be-all of phone functionality to be limited to phone calls and text messaging. But it’s actually kind of hard to get a phone that does those two functions well and doesn’t overload your brain with extra functionality. I have shunned so-called “Smart Phones” for so long that I hadn’t realized how simple and advanced they have become. That my phone has a WiFi card is just stunning to me. Perhaps I’m more a Luddite than I initially thought.

In any event, thus far it’s been a seamless transition. I stored all my contacts on the T-Mobile address book which is available online, rather than stored on the SIM card, so once the phone connected, I had all my contacts synchronized and ready for use.

Speaking of synchronization, the damn thing has a USB cable to connect to my computer for synchronization with images, music, scheduling, contacts, emails–the thing is more computer than many of my previous computers (consider the Tandy 1000, my first real desktop).

There are downsides, of course. The voice quality on the handset isn’t the best, and given my hearing issues caused by years and years of listening to very loud music far too often, it’s troublesome. Fortunately, the stereo earphones work very nicely for this and, according to people I’ve talked to thus far, the quality of my voice transmitted through the headset’s microphone is completely understandable. It’s even got a 2.0 Megapixel camera attached to it. My first digital camera… let’s not even get into that.

I imagine that I’ll find things about it that frustrate me, but for now I think I’ve made a very good choice.

Small Fries

I’m absolutely all for making things usable and accessible to everyone. I like websites to be semantically coded, I like audio books for the blind, and I get a sour taste in my mouth when I can’t get a ramp to get up stairs.

But there are two urinals in the bathroom closest to my cube. One is a normal height, slightly short maybe for me, since I’m 6′4″. The other comes up to about 3 inches below my knee. This is a drug and literature warehouse/fulfillment company. There are no dwarfs who work here. No child labor. For some reason, usability studies convinced this multi-million dollar company to install usable urinals for tiny people.

If I were to try using it, gravity would quite likely force me to change my pants.

This is a lesson, I think, to not develop usability studies in a vacuum. Or I’m just bitching because I don’t have a spare pair of jeans in my cube.

High Point in a Valley

You know it’s pretty much a wash of a day when the most important, interesting thing that happens to you is that you move to a new cube. That’s definitely a signal that your evening better be a lot more vibrant. You can’t end a day with the high point of, “Now my monitors have a slightly different backdrop.”

It’s also sad when you rationalize it further. You say, “No, this really is interesting and exciting.” That’s where I am right now. New desk, new cube, new walls, new chair–this truly is the high point of my day.

I’ve long been a champion of working environments that are tailored not only for productivity (and, related, the bottom line of the company), but also for the comfort of the worker. Things that, a few years ago, would’ve been considered absolutely silly, such as dual or triple monitor setups, have become absolutely integral to my ability to write code efficiently with fewer mistakes and more ability to test. Running the code side-by-side with the project your working on is more than just saving you the keystroke of alt-tabbing to the right screen. Once you make a migration to that environment, you don’t want to ever, ever work in a different one.

The company I’m with now goes out of its way to make the working environment conducive to productivity and comfort. So maybe my high point really can be the new cube. Or maybe I’m rationalizing a dull life.

At the end of the day, though, who cares?

Long Weekends

So it’s been one of those weekends, I’m afraid. Lost in the wilderness of free time. My dear friend Derek leaves for Scotland this morning for his 4 years at St. Andrews, paid just to be clever and write philosophical papers and such. An open-ended position, and I am seething with envy. We played video games and drank beer late into the night last night. He was only in town for a few days, and he’ll be back in August.

Sometimes we forgot how much someone means to us until they leave. Derek leaves a lot, so I’m constantly reminded. Given how often he pops in and out of my life, I’m surprised at how easy the “See you next time,” comes to me. And I just know there’s going to be a time when such a comment would be inappropriate. Eventually, he’s just going to stop somewhere and stay.

to shape teh future

I’ve tried really, really hard to not jump the gun in this 2008 election season and support one candidate or another, not so much because I want to see where the cards fall, but because it’s been more important to me to determine a candidate’s efficacy based off his or her prior words as contrast to their current actions, and prior words are always cumulating, as time moves inexorably forward. Hillary has said some marvelous things in the past, as well as in the present. McCain used to be a beacon of moderation in the Senate in the past. And Obama…

Obama spoke at the 2004 Democratic National Convention. I remember thinking to myself, “This man could be the next President. I wish he were running at not the easily-forgettable Kerry.”

The pundits, the pundits like to slice-and-dice our country into Red States and Blue States; Red States for Republicans, Blue States for Democrats. But I’ve got news for them, too. We worship an “awesome God” in the Blue States, and we don’t like federal agents poking around in our libraries in the Red States. We coach Little League in the Blue States and yes, we’ve got some gay friends in the Red States. There are patriots who opposed the war in Iraq and there are patriots who supported the war in Iraq. We are one people, all of us pledging allegiance to the stars and stripes, all of us defending the United States of America.

It was that quote that I was reminded of today. Reading it again, then watching pieces of the address at Youtube, brought tears to my eyes. He wasn’t speaking about Kerry and Edwards in 2004, he was speaking about himself in 2008. And I’ve been saying this since the beginning of this exceedingly long campaign season: If Obama’s handlers would just let him loose, there’d be no stopping him, as evidenced by this speech in 2004.

It’s so rare to think of the candidate with a message of hope actually doing well nationally. And I just might take a chance and hope along with him. When it comes down to it, I’ll vote for Obama, instead of against McCain.

Business Casual

Once or twice a month, here at the office, we have important people who come to visit. We are warned ahead of time and asked to dress in “business casual.” This removes jeans & t-shirts from my wardrobe. It also removes piercings.

Now, I’m sorta okay with the attitude of “looking successful,” despite how disingenuous it feels in my soul. But what I don’t get is that they ask me to remove my visible piercings. I have one in my right nostril. When I take it out, I am left with a visible hole in my right nostril.

Which looks more successful? The guy with the fancy jewelry, or the guy with the third nostril?

+18 Years

It’s been 18 years since I first sat down with my NES and popped the Super Mario Bros 3 cartridge in. I played the absolute hell out of that game, through it multiple times, alone and with others. It was a fantastic game that literally consumed all my freetime for years.

This past week I bought it again for $5 from the online shop for the Nintendo Wii. It’s been 18 years, and the game is as fresh and entertaining as it was when it first came out, which is absolutely extraordinary.

Consider a modern game. Say, Grand Theft Auto IV. A fun game, to be sure. Consider putting it down for 18 years. When you pick it back up, I can almost guarantee that the charm of the old game will only hold you for a matter of hours, perhaps minutes, before you are annoyed with the ancient interface (surely by then we’ll have 30+ buttons on our controllers, and at least 6 analog sticks) and put it down to go back to Halo 8 or something. The story won’t be interesting, the gameplay will be clichéd and dull, and it simply won’t hold your attention.

SMB3, however, maintains the glee. The innocence. The pure joy of jumping through those old levels and making progress. Throwing life after life away on hard levels, breezing through the easier ones.

On the very first level, as I jumped onto a big white block, my first instinct was to duck down for a few seconds so that I could fall behind the scenery. This is an action I did without thought, without planning. It’s shocking the things you remember.